timdrage wrote: ↑Sun Oct 04, 2020 4:19 pm
what do you dislike about noise?
too much music.
Mh. I bought all this modular gear to make "crazy noises" and it's all coming out minimal techno and house music! I'm not going to lie, though. I'm having a good time.
Young Hate wrote: ↑Sun Oct 04, 2020 8:35 pm
Well, most noise musicians are either: older family men with a background in engineering/higher education in general OR slightly younger, less stable men with at least one detrimental habit
I fall squarely into the latter category, and seeing ppl with their s*it together makes me feel inadequate sometimes
Disturbingly accurate. It's less about feeling inadequate these days than it is feeling hopeless about myself, and worrying I'll never find any potential love interest, or any real and trustworthy friends who aren't total hot messes or outright sociopaths, or just insufferably fussy, uptight snobs outside of meeting people on the Internet, where the odds are slightly better.
Once again, this is in relation to music and the arts in general (especially where "weird/alternative" scenes are concerned). I don't have a lot of real hobbies/passions in life. Very little for me to do or to talk about. If I can't share this one damn thing with somebody, I'm doomed! All I ever wanted was someone else to be my friend and to spoon me at night and share the burden of existence with me and motivate me to go on living through the horrors and banalities of this one-shot, absurd existence in between milking goats, cooking meals and making wobbly synth farts together. Like a fifth-rate version of Coil. Tall order! Especially when you're as fucked up and shitty as everyone else.